First of all, I am not being compelled or forced to do this, at least not by any external agent. This is all about acknowledging my mistake.
When the allegations about Mandy and Zak first arose, I very quickly jumped on Google+ and made a vague and non-committal statement along the lines of "I was fooled and I am sorry." I don't remember the exact words, but maybe it's been screenshotted somewhere. That's the gist of it, anyway.
When challenged to specify what I meant, I prevaricated and said something like "I said what I said", and left it at that.
Looking back, I was trying to have it both ways, to signal my expected outrage while avoiding taking a side, at least overtly. More, in truth it was never really about showing support for Mandy, but rather to be seen to be on the "right" side. It was bandwagon-jumping, and I expect better of myself than that.
It was cowardly and wrong.
I always try to be fair and kind in life, and this was neither. And for that, I am sorry.
It would actually be pretty cool if we normalized the acknowledgment of what we perceive as our own past mistakes.
ReplyDeleteNot that I personally felt like you had any wrongs to right, but still, good on you. Now, I'll sign off before you get accused of virtue signaling or some shit like that.
Claytonian asked a question in a comment that I accidentally deleted (phone, fat fingers):
ReplyDelete"It's not clear if you are taking a side now. Is your position that you don't know who to believe?"
No, no side is being taken here. This is just me recognising that the statements I made back then were not made for honest reasons.